He Has Set His Affection On Us
To the Lord your God belongs the heavens, even the highest heavens the earth and everything in it. Yet the Lord set his affection on your forefathers and loved them, and he chose you, their descendants above all the nations
i found this little gem when i was clearing space on my computer. this is marked 2.12.10. i love the way jesus works everything out.
what do i really want to do?
that was the question and answer, all in one. i think the lord loves answering in questions.
i was asking the lord what i should do.
lord, should i move to nashville?
lord, should i pursue this job?
and i just felt the prompting, ashlea do you want that job?
then i thought about it. answering phones. office. and immediately i knew no, i don’t want this job.
but it’s hard because nashville isn’t only about the job. it’s about a lot more.
it’s about a way out of lancaster that is immediate and visible.
it’s about the chances of finding a guy that meets my ‘criteria’ increases… and my chances of meeting one particular guy a lot.
it’s about doing something ‘cool’ in my mind.
it’s about still being apart of something i love.
and then i remember what i really want to do.
i want to love children that haven’t received love - perhaps ever.
i want to see the kingdom of heaven impact areas where others called desolate and forgotten.
i want to give my life to the call of christ.
to his pursuit of the lost and abandoned, the widow, orphan and poor.
not behind a desk.
not making phone calls - about something in the end i don’t necessarily agree with.
the hard part is that i’m still in the same spot.
i don’t really know where i’m going or when.
i just know one thing i’m not to do.
but i still feel better all the same.
one less option in my mind is one step closer to the right one.
so i wait, anxiously, for the door the lord has for me to fling open in all it’s glory and anticipation.
the door that the lord created before my creation.
the door that holds all of the characteristics that the lord created me for.
where my strengths and weaknesses are used and refined.
the door that in essence, is my destiny.
p.s. this is not to condemn anyone that has a “desk job”! this is just a portrait of my heart in that moment.
About Me
I’m enamored with a man named Jesus and because of this love I am seeking to share Him with anyone and everyone. I plan to waste my life on Him so that He might receive love and glory and the reward of His sufferings.
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